This is the first week in which I have had no hospital or doctor appointments. The first week in which I wasn’t totally on edge, work hasn’t been too busy and I have been able to manage my work load. My parents are finally recovering.
When Friday night came, I started to feel this intense guilt for not having done enough during lockdown. I started to feel like I should have done more during this time. I should have worked on my side hustle, I should have built an empire, more more more more…. but is this what I really wanted?
During this time it’s OK to just focus on getting through this period, to not feel guilty for using this time to do nothing. When will we have time where we are forced to be so still.
I went to see the Christmas light in central London, it was strangely quiet with hardly any people around. Even so, it was nice to feel the joy of the holidays. There may be no winter wonderland this year, or endless glasses of mulled wine or delicious crepes, but there are still small pleasures to be found and be grateful for.
